today was real Disappointment..
I've never Thought that I would feel this way one day..
we live our lives thinking that we are unbreakable..then we crash for no reason
I don't know why I am living in this misery.. is it carma??
what am I paying for??
were my mistakes that bad??
it's Ironic to be brought up and taught the Stupid say of
(you can do something you can make every thing different
if you just put your mind into it) ..but you find out that you're helpless no matter what ...
and that dose not work in the real world..
I've no Idea who is talking right now
..is it rejection?? is it Loneliness?? is it Frustration??
and I don't know am I sick to fall in love with people don't even know I am Exist
??
watching them everyday holding hands..laughing ...it sound like they're laughing on your Stupidity ...your pain..your nerve to even think about it..
a sign for you to understand that you are not worth it
you will never reach it !!
and that's hurt
you will never reach it !!
and that's hurt
sure.. you're invisible Situation Forces you to Swallow that pain..
the feeling of being the solved side of the case
BUT you keep showing up..hoping that something would change and you might
get chance despite everything that make sense!!!
NOW maybe I am too weak to write..but what am I going to to do.. ??
how can I stand up for my self if I was to weak to stand ???
I want to see her the same way that she sees me ..and I mean by that( nothing)
I am doing my best to get it all together ..to pull my self out of this mess
I am Really Tired and Exhausted
best regards to my fighting soul
the feeling of being the solved side of the case
BUT you keep showing up..hoping that something would change and you might
get chance despite everything that make sense!!!
NOW maybe I am too weak to write..but what am I going to to do.. ??
how can I stand up for my self if I was to weak to stand ???
I want to see her the same way that she sees me ..and I mean by that( nothing)
I am doing my best to get it all together ..to pull my self out of this mess
I am Really Tired and Exhausted
best regards to my fighting soul
hi again
well you are absolutely right .... about this world
i cant even lie on you and tell you that there
is hope in this filthy world
but i can tell you one true thing that we will suffer if we didn't lie on ourself in order to stand again
don't think it's easy but still it's easier than suffering alone
believe me am in a relation and trying my best to hold this relation but she has given her love her heart her self to somebody else and am there alone to suffer
tell me ?
who's suffering?me
who's crying?me
who's falling?me
so there is no way out exept that to forget our pain which is the hardest>>>>am sorrry
hope you can move on in this misery :(
Listen to me my friend..if there is any thing in this world would cost you your Dignity...just let it go
it's not worthy..and you do not Deserves that
nobody dose
thanks for being here..and I hope things will work out for you